Mmm Comedy
Loving the laughs at the moment. Went to see Dara O'Briain on Saturday at the Liverpool Philharmonic. Was awesome even though the audience didn't give him much. Saw Frankie Boyle a month or so ago, and next month I've got tickets to see Sean Lock :) Huzzah!!
Aside from that, me and adam are ok again. He came with me to Liverpool but didn't seem too chuffed about most things aside from Dara. I miss Ina dead loads. Tried calling, no answer and its ages between emails. siiiiiiiiiiigh.
At the moment I'm looking for jobs and I'm going to start enquiring at places to do a Make-Up course. Seeing as that's what I spend most of my time playing with and buying I may as well make it into a career.. or at least try.
Not looking forward to having to spend time with umpa-loompas though.
Last night went shopping with Tom. He spent £120ish on mainly alcohol. He's a criminal cocktailer. Although we did get this fantastically tacky orb full of raspberry liquor and my, its heavenly!!
Thats all really :)
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your messages are the only thing that keep me going. i think about death too many times it's sick. not right now but like i wonder if i'll just drop dead after this year. is this life making sense to you at all?
cause it's not doing it for me. it's just not coming around. i keep thinking if i do this, or go there, do this or that i'll finally get to that point where life is okay. where life doesn't hurt anymore.
but it's not happening. i just wanna hug you and then be done with it all. i really do.
i keep myself from talking to you cause you are my dark side. i don't know what privileges myself having you in my life. it's a gift i can't grasp. people don't care do they and you do. you always did. and i can't even grasp you. i can't take you in entirely cause it scares me so much thinking i'd lose you some day. i sit downand listen to your msgs at three in the morning and sob. i just sit there. i miss you too. guess that's what i'm trying to say. i don't know anymore.
are you home this weekend somewhen? i'll call you at the house or at adams even i don't mind. i can't pick up my cell though cause it costs me 4 bucks a minute to receive an international call for some reason.
i think the same. I watched big fish last night and cried cause i'll never have that many at my funeral. There's this huge slice of me missing cause you're not here. After you're done stateside would you come stay in the uk? Seriously now. It may be a bad idea us living together.. Living in our own filth or it could be the best thing to happen to us both. Between us we could crack this life bollocks. Cause it makes no sense to me without you. It's even dawned on me that living in liverpool again wouldn't fix things. Even as much as i'd like it to. But i'd love to try.. But only with you. I'm free all the time. Call me whenever! Have you got skype? Cause i have that on my mobile. I miss you so so much. There's a post saved on my mobile about you. It wouldn't send but i'll transcribe it for you. Love you forever!
didcha get my email? i'll do the mac thing of courses.
i've been thinking about that so much lately. i have no clue if college is gonna work out but even if we just move in and get bring jobs. i can't go back to my mums. i don't wanna stay in gemrany. i don't feel home at all and i feel home with you. so yeah can we do that? think about where you wanna go maybe. anywhere close to adams? i wouldn't mind too much having him around either if he wants to join us. if he fucks up though i won't be nice :P y'know me!
send me your home digits so i can call you somewhen dude! ( it's me new favourite word, quite a bit american innit! ) . transcribe it for meeeeee i'd love that.
the people i'm living with are going to move aparently.l i don't know when and where. i don't think i'll go with them. it's gonna break my heart giving them up but i'm not happy with the job and seriousl if they fucking move to friggin hartford i'll fucking kill myself. i can't give up a year of my life for them. i just can't. which is horrible, right? i love those kids and them and i wish they were my family. and ireally do wonder if i'm screwing up a good thing happening to me. sorry for ranting.. i just don't know what to do.
Hi!